Wednesday, October 15, 2014

Meaningless, like chasing the wind

Today is a bad day. 

Every piece of me has this dull ache.

I feel like everything I'm doing has become meaningless.

I feel like I am meaningless. 

I just want to disappear. 

Monday, October 6, 2014

Today

Today is the first day in a very long time that I woke up and thought life was worth living.

Today, I didn't hit my snooze when I knew I absolutely had to get up.

Today, I am prepared to tackle the problems that my internal struggle has caused in my daily life. Head. On.

Today, maybe I can really smile and really laugh. And mean it.

Tomorrow, I'm not sure about.

Tomorrow is a scary place that I don't want to think about today.

Tomorrow, however, is a reality.

Tomorrow, I don't know how I'll wake up.

But I know that I will. Wake up, that is. I'll wake up tomorrow and the next day and the next day.

I know I can wake up and handle a rough tomorrow.

Because I'm not giving up today.